A Dozen Leaking Buckets: A Chapbook


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The Apparition Poems in this collection were drawn from a larger manuscript of Apparition Poems completed by Adam Fieled in late 2013. Cover painting is "The Departure of Hector" by Jacques-Louis David.

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A Dozen Leaking Buckets: A Chapbook Adam Fieled


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#717 On why it has to be that writing comfortable garbage is the inevitable byproduct of living comfortably, with each fresh hell I wonder why the hooks towards artful utterance are set this way, & why I must become such an oyster just to confer into a leaking bucket, insecurely hung from abraded cables, a blue droplet not even of blood but of nectar, or wine, or whiskey—


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#1547 this is what words amount to— festivals of ash, collapsed into urns, held up by timid folk for the bold to scatter.


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#1901 Conshohocken power lines in the rain— edges of buildings cut through whitened sky, as rising light topples privacy for squat-dwellers on the Schuylkill— I see power defining itself in lines, acrobatic, space-consonant, but always working within suburban, subaltern parameters— eternity decoyed from a rusty beneath.


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#2009 Imagery is cheap, with nothing beneath— play a pretty part in puppet-world, against all but solipsism, is what you chose, as now you’re quarantined beneath the weight of your pretensions, impaled on the permanent lightning of your own cruelty doubled back— you can see yourself on the set, directing the action, mouthing the lines, arranging the press, except your body remains nailed, it is no cathedral, and in the corner the bucket holds only your shit—


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#2021 America has its own pathetic fallacy— not that the moon loves the clouds, but that someone who knows us really loves us, is watching from above, tying together loose ends, reducing boundaries, corralling the populace into a virtual arena where we watch ourselves defeat all foes eternally. Just as mountains kiss the sky, all things happen for a reason, things right themselves in the end. Now, we’re pale for weariness, wandering companionless, and if we’re climbing heaven, we feel hellish.


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#2030 For those with roots in a cesspool, for whom family history is bathing in muck, there can be no question that symbolic language solves any problems— behind a square glass façade, there are only acknowledgments of prevailing currents, with/against us, always a sense of arbitrary, rootless movement, continual transgression, moments fathered into existence in hopes of some seminal thrust, as we’re borne ceaselessly up from blue waves—


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#2042 If you attempt to create something solid from language, all the million harrows of your inadequacy must pursue you, what’s solid is harrowing— past your control. As for I, you had better sacrifice the whole construct, complexities & all, as it is all evanescent, and circuits back to language show you all the magic prophecies of nonexistence you not only fulfill, but harrow—


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#2057 If you’re lucky, you look for the dread of facing morning, can’t find it— you find what ever solidity you have, move on. But its there, & in snowpiles in parking lots, trees lining the little Conshy peak, stores yet to open on Fayette Street, it hides, waiting to envelope, dissolve, bury anyone who falters for even a minute, in its bloody maw—


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#2072 A lesson in the world is a lesson in how cheap human life can be— I walk through the amusement parks of the “great ones of the world,” realize that the only permanent attractions are intoxicating smoke & flattering mirrors. If I go out of my way to eschew the roller coasters, its because the upper air is cyanide.


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#2090 I’m, I wanted to tell her, that last bit of Russia you just can’t conquer— so, as you retreat for the last time, with knowledge that the war is turning in my favor, I sigh that humanity has to be what it is— a little extra strychnine in my morning coffee, to settle me down—


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#2094 Three days before Christmas, its unusually warm, the simple fact of a solid grey sky redeems what torturous human complexities I have no way out of— where the sky begins is where we end, on the ground where gutters fit, I heave my own brain into the sky—


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#2104 If I don’t have a lot of nerve, somebody does— trying, in unspeakably unspeakable times, to speak the unspeakable— rain falls on Fayette Street at dawn, I’m having half a nervous breakdown, on an acid trip, pinning branches to the sky—


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***cover painting is “The Departure of Hector” by Jacques-Louis David*** ***all poems drawn from a larger collection of Apparition Poems completed in late 2013***



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